Beyond Belief

There was a man sent from God, whose name was John.  This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe.  He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that light. John 1:6-8  

Belief in God is just the beginning…a beginning to a new relationship.  When I finally decided that I really did believe, it was like I simply opened the door and said… “Okay God, it’s okay with me, you can come on in.”

That is the day I started arguing less and listening more…however, before that day… any conversation with me about God was the beginning of an argument. …no matter what side you were on…I was on the arguing side.  Why?  It’s simple enough…I had absolutely no idea what I was talking about.  My favorite target for an argument was my sister-in-law.  She was always talking Jesus this and Jesus that, but I was so caught up in myself…I couldn’t see her Jesus.  I guess you could say I was hardpan soil…

Like the soils described in this parable in Mark’s Gospel.. …there went out a sower to sow: and it came to pass, as he sowed, some fell by the way side, and the fowls of the air came and devoured it up.  And some fell on stony ground… and some fell among thorns…and others fell on good ground…And He said to them, he that has ears to hear, let him hear…The sower soweth the word. Mark 4:3-9 & 14

I was more like asphalt…hard and stoney and near impenetrable…like a concrete sidewalk along the wayside on my road to nowhere.  That was me…pretty much oblivious to what was going on outside my little world…until I invited Him In!  And then the first crack appeared in my protective shell… on the day I finally said;

“Yes, I believe in you God”

…and in my believing, my hard ground started to become His good ground..!

Soon after…God sent an emissary in the form of a child.  A little girl just three years old,  as His special secret agent.  My little girl, curious about whose picture was hanging on the wall at daycare asks…

“mommy, who is that?”  In passing…her mother replys.”that’s Jesus honey.”   “mommy…where does Jesus live?”  following a pause… she answers “honey…he lives at church.”  …”mommy, I want to go where Jesus lives…I want to go to His house..!”

From the very last row of a balcony in a little church in Aloha Oregon…my wife says she found something and wanted to go back…and my little one…she just wanted to pray all the time…everywhere.  That’s what she learned at Jesus House.  Oh, and my sister-in-law…well they were becoming a lot like her… Jesus this and Jesus that..!  Belief in God was one thing…but I didn’t sign up for all this…a life with Jesus freaks…”come on”…plus praying in public was, to say the least, a little uncomfortable…and a lot embarrassing..!

So…in defense…and sure that my family had joined a cult…I sought some help. . . 

The owner of The Dove Bookstore listened…then suggested a book… “The parallel Bible”…It didn’t look like a bible…it was a big paperback.  He said; It was like a Bible… except contained four different translations…that way, I could be sure to know the truth and hopefully set my family free.  He suggested, It might be best to begin my reading at The Book of John, and showed me the page…so thats what I did… At first reading… ‘The Amplified’ version seemed best…however…reading every verse in every chapeter in all four translations…well that proved most helpful in my quest for truth…

The Amplified Bible…The Gospel According to John…starts out reading like this… 1. In the beginning [before all time] was the Word [Christ], and the Word was with God, and the Word was God Himself.  2. He was present originally with God.  3. All things were made and came into existence through Him; and without Him was not even one thing made that has come into being.  4. In Him was Life and the Life was the Light of men.  5. And the Light shines on in the darkness, for the darkness has never over-powered it – darkness has never put it out, has not absorbed it, has not appropriated it, and is unreceptive to it.

which brings us back where we started today’s blog… There came a man, sent from God, whose name was John.   This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. John 1:6

Those very first few verses captured me…I could not put this book down.  I read the book at home…I read the book at the office…everywhere I went…I read the book.  For thirty days I read this book…everyday.  I read the book so much…that my dad thought I might have lost my mind.  And then suddenly something happened…I knelt down behind my desk… and began to talk to God…saying…”God…all this makes sense…more sense than anything I have ever heard before…God…I want to be your son…I want your Jesus in my life…I want you to be my God…please forgive me for not seeing you before..!”  And it was so…And I was beyond belief.  My hard soil was being broken.

Read the Word of God…I believe it will change your life…

Thanks for Listening…

6 thoughts on “Beyond Belief

  1. Steve, you remember me as Barbara Courtney at Aloha. Larry, my husband ended up leaving me and the three kids while living in Maryland almost 30 years ago now. The Lord never left me and I am remarried to a wonderful man, Ray Williamson in 1990. Back when, you were my friend. I remember well.

    A lot has transpired but God is King! I am a JOYFUL and TRIUMPHANT woman of God. I had two cancers in 2009-2010 but currently am cancer-free. I am a raucous ARTIST living in McKinney Texas and loving it. Would love to talk with you again sometime.

    Love Barbara Williamson

  2. Very nice Dad. I too had heard most of the parts of this before, but I love the verse about the light. It is one of my very favorites. I love you.
    Signed ~His special secret agent~

  3. Steve,

    Thank you for sharing!
    It is interesting how much difficulty we can have grasping the concept that while a light shines it rarely peaks!

  4. Hello Steven!

    It’s always fun to read what you have written. This one is no exception. I knew most of the story already, but the part about kneeling behind your desk was new to me. Yup, I’ll be your dad did think you’d lost your mind!

    Love, Sis

  5. Last month I was walking out to where David was working, in back of the house, and I was walking at a pretty good clip(well for me it was a pretty good clip)! In my hurried arrival I trip over a uneven crack in the asphalt and my momentum catapulted myself almost on my head. I instinctively put my hand out to break my fall and in doing so removed some of my epidermal layer from my hand and forearm, plus tore a hole in my jacket where my elbow was. After picking my self up and taking inventory at to what else, besides skin, I had lost, I looked at what had caused the Pillsbury Dough Boy to do a half gainer……There before my eyes was a single light green stem of a yet unknown plant, pushing it’s way up through this giant killing, skin removing asphalt. I thought to myself, how easily I could reach down and rip this little green giant killer right out of the ground, with just a simple twist, and yet this soft, green, unknown plant had pushed this rock hard asphalt up high enough to cause this non Olympic Hurdler to forfeit any chance of a gold medal. I’m not sure that this has any relationship to your great blog, except I also liked the photo of the tree growing out of the crack in the retaining wall….Be of good cheer….I love your words!!!! Spike

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